i always thought that were holidays is a time when u unwind….have fun…relax…catch up with friends….it is true….i am unwinding….crying out all that pain i couldnt do back in dubai… at work…coz i was too busy…..or let me put it this way….i kept myself so busy….especially at times when i felt the slightest trace of any kind of emotional/tiring thoughts cropping up…i dont know if it worked…but i did manage to keep those thoughts incomplete….always thinking ill get back to them later….and now is that ‘later’……and im not able to handle this rush of sooo many varied emotions….i think ill just collapse before i can digest anyone of these thoughts anymore…..nights are the best times…dark…silent…beautiful…there is something that darkness….maybe it gives me this shelter…where i can hide myself from everyone….not that anyone is dying to get a glimpse of me or a feel of my emotions…..but its more of this shelter…where u feel safe….sealed…..alone….
fun….ya i would be lying if i said i didn’t have fun in these few days…..but all the credit goes to charu…..if left to me alone…i wld be sitting at home in one corner all day…haha….
as for catching up with friends….oh my lord….i believe this was/is/and going to be the worst part ….thats coz everyone…has moved on….A-Z everyone!!!….and im still living a stale life that expired 2 yrs back….with the same stupid outdated memories….and one question i could slap everyone for….’so tell me man…its been so long…wats happening?’…..so wats if its been long…it doesnt mean something HAS to happen…nothing has happened..and nothing is happening…i think ive just got more boring…over these 2 yrs…ya thats wat has happened….but right now i know im not alone…..its only at such times that ur blood comes to ur rescue….to give u company….in ur loser life….i bet the person who i am referring to has understood that its her… 
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…days comes days go….people come people go….but i still feel my life has come to a standstill…. and come to think about it…im happy in own delusional world….so as long as that lasts….im fine…after that…i dont know….really…..
Hey…i am with u ..all the way..trust me..i think we ARE invisible..hahah…i mean not that anyone bothers…but thats the fact..i just checked out with my travel agent….seems the tickets to Pluto are going at a steal…i suppose its time for us to MOVE ON too…;)
Just hang in there..thats what u get most of the times…i wld probably go better than that one..just hang urself..hahahha…more of a SOLUTION…:Dchal..talk to u more offline…won’t want my valuable suggestions to be pirated…;)
Orciee…hmm I know..everyone seems to hv moved on..and DOIN things in life..and i feel i m where I was 3 years back!
)..and I know how vacations get you to think about all those things you dont when you are busy..loneliness..distance..sadness..watever..I absolutely used to hate weekends..used to remind me of my friendless existence (okay it still does 
)..but gurl You are MOVING forward..I CAN see the progress..:D atleast professionally..so think of it as ONE bright spot atleast..
Oh n good u mentioned my name ..i would not have been very happy otherwise
..hehe kiDDing..I do feel we could have done much more 
..had more fun..gone places..sigh..but its okay..some other time..we’ll have mOre funnn than everrrrr..we’ll go PArtehhinggg hhehe..