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ive come to a stage where i feel comfortably numb…and dumb….and i quite enjoy it too….the indifference…really helps…dont expect anything and dont get anything…happy ending….

 getting into all this thinking – why didnt they call me…why didnt they listen to me…why do people talk to the same people they used to bitch abt….why dont they talk to me….dont they miss me….are people blind and cant see whats happening around them…..- is nothing but a waste of time…..

 and today ive realised…..the best thing is…..be a loner….noone expects anything from u…noone makes u feel guilty…and u dont have to get disappointed after expecting…

 sometimes i wish i was invisible….then people dont see u…and when they dont…they forget u….i act like that though….i convince myself…that im invisible…noone can see me…im free to do what i want…and think what i want….without feeling bad or guilty about it….and its working quite well…people have forgotten about me…i somehow dont exist to them anymore….it used to upset me earlier…now it makes no difference…sometimes i do come back…become visible…and when i see them….they all are in the same world they used to be…..nothing has changed…..

 but then again u can only forget those people who u remember…..right?…..so what do u call forgetting people u have already forgotten?