…its been so long since i actually hung out with my friends…and ive reached a stage where i can acutally call myself ‘desperate’…..i mean…how long can one go on without a social life man…work home work home…..just gets too much…and im sure one of my closest friends totally agrees with me on this….all we do is sit and compare whos life is more ‘loserish’ than the others…haha….and just end up all depressed at the end…well..getting back to my desperate tendencies…im presently at a level..where i totally jump at any possible offer any asshole makes….yes…and i mean even assholes…..people who i wldnt even give a second thought to otherwise….sigh!….
and even worse…the lucky day i manage to find someone to hang out with….im soo excited that im not able to sleep….(now thats wat i seriously call DEPRIVED!)….to add to the misery my desperation is shown out….its like this locked up bitch has suddenly got all the freedom she cld dream of….but thats the sad part…i have all the freedom i want…..its just noone to share it with….now…thats a scary thing..does it really mean that im that bad to hang out with????? i might be difficult..but certainly not annoying…..(i hope not!)….
and it so freaking makes me jealous…when weekend arrives… mobiles start ringing..and they’re all busy making plans abt where to hang out and all…infact some of them have sooo many ppl to hang out with…that it gets too tough to manage them over the weekend…and here…im like hoping..praying…wishing…for some decent company….I ALSO WANT MY COOL GROUP OF FRIENDS!!!!!!…waaaaaaaah….lifes so unfair……but trust me…i have a track record of losing all the poeple i love…so with such a sexy record…i cant wish for much..can i??….
and now..its weekend…and ive just witnessed one of those mobile calls…(obviously not mine…someone who just dropped me off from work)…and there i sat….imagining how cool it wld have been if i also had ppl calling me up…for weekend plans and movies and bowling….sigh…swear man…at such times…i miss only one person the MOST…CHARU!…….i swear charu…if u come here…i wldnt ever feel so lonely like i do now…..
…work does keep me busy man…but at the end of the day…..deep down…u just feel so empty..so lonely…i do live with folks…but thats so different……at such times..i just go to the pantry…ans stare out from the window……watch the cars…and people all in a hurry….while i just stand there at the top alone………………….
Orkieeeeeee..waaaaaaaahh..u made me all deepressed with that lonely talk
..dont worry gurl..instead of “hanging” out with losers over the weekend..u should join som CLASSSS…join ittttttt..u can atleast “learn” smthiing u knw 
..I’ve decided to work this weekend 
lezeeeeeee..just loved ur post though..u have tht “knack” girll..
hey kewl
u changed ur “theme” 
niceee.
Orcieeeeee bumm….y u feeling so lonely shonely??? Gurlll – cheer up…I knw how it is ..i go thru it every other week…but really..u jus hv to pull urself outta it..nobody can help u in this…Like funky said..try to keep urself busy..get involved in things…go to the gym..pamper urself…Do anything and everything that makes u happy!!
Oh and i like ur new theme!!
Dont be depressed luv. I’ll take you out…what say???!!! Cheers
Woaah…Whoz this new admirer of urs
hehe
U soo lucky to have SOO many admirers gurl ..hehe
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so did u manage to find his identity.. or was he like just another “secret admirers” which you had in college